Student Blog Written By: Nathan Rushik, Fellows
When I arrived on campus, my primary insecurity was about how I viewed God and who He is, which directly affected my identity because it was based on what other people said to me or about me, and not who He is and what He says about me.
One place I saw this grow was during our spiritual rhythms retreat.
After long hours of trying to pray and hear from God in silence and solitude, I finally let go of performing. When I did this and waited for Him to speak, He reminded me that it is not out of obligation He wants to be with me, and He enjoys being with me even when I’m doing nothing.
When we traveled to Brazil, God revealed troubles in my heart that I could not see in the comfort of my American life. While in Brazil, we had long days and full schedules, which made it hard to have intentional time with God. This showed me the deep need I have for God. I had no way of loving people well; it became artificial and self-centered love. I realized my life outside of a relationship with God, outside of abiding in the vine, is awful. This experience really helped me see that.
During discipleship, I saw God’s grace for my life as my discipler was able to seek deeper into my thoughts and bring the truth of scripture to what I was thinking. This discipleship has been such a blessing, because of how intentional it is and how guiding it is to become a Godly man.
Beyond where I will go for school and what I will do for work, I plan to implement everything we have learned about having spiritual conversations. I plan to invite others into that and slowly grow into a lifestyle of evangelism. I also plan to be intentional with seeking out people to disciple and asking Godly men to disciple me. Another aspect that I have learned here that I plan to continue is reflection. Looking back on seasons, situations, moments in time, and asking how this was good and how it could have been better.
To those who have supported me in prayer and financial donations. I want to say big time thank you. There have been so many ways that I have seen god intervene in my life while being here. I have learned so much from the class modules, from the staff, and from my peers. This opportunity has been such a blessing and gift from God; I am so thankful.
We believe that when a student is rooted in truth, they become a catalyst for the Kingdom wherever they go. Help us continue to forge disciples who possess the resolve to stay faithful and the tools to make disciples. Your investment in the Multiply Fund makes this transformation possible.